Struggle

I hate that I'm being emo and blogging about this crap but I'm struggling right now. I'm not happy with certain areas of my life so I'm looking for a change but I feel like I'm being pulled away from things that have always been a constant in my life. I'm so ready to leave Arkansas and start a clean new chapter in my life. I'm ready for a place where no-one knows my name and I can make a brand new life.

I hate the fact that I dont enjoy going to church here anymore. I love going in Conway and other places I just do not enjoy going to church in monticello. It just doesnt feel like home anymore and it makes it so easy to find reasons not to go. I need help I do know that. I just hope that when I move I can find a place that I truly enjoy again. I feel like I'm in such a dry desert in my spiritual life.

Just pray for me that I make the right decisions in life over the next few months.

On a happy note: 3 WEEKS TIL I LEAVE FOR LONDON!!!!!!

Excitedness (yeah I totally just made up a word).

I have a lot of things to be excited about in my life right now. First of all the end of the semester is almost here! That means I have ONE YEAR LEFT!!!!1 I'm sooooo happy. I am so ready to leave Monticello. I'll miss my little 16x16 ft home of 4 year but I'm ready for a bigger place with a kitchen and a bathroom. I'm also ready for a drivers license from another state. Second I leave for London in 25 days!! I'm so glad that I'm taking advantage of these trip opportunities. Third I am now the chairperson of the student activities board here on campus which is totally awesome. Fourth I just love life wich excites me! Now I'm off to work to share my love for life with everyone.

Yvonne

P.S. please pray for my car. The fact that it is being dumb does NOT excite me.

Apparantly I'm not a fan of marriage (I titled this after I wrote the blog).

Well the conference is over and I did OK. It wasn't my best presentation but it certainly was not my worst. Now I'm sitting in my room about halfway done cleaning it and I really really don't feel like finishing it. I HATE cleaning my room! I would rather scrub a dozen toilets than clean my room. If I ever get married my husband will be in charge of keeping the bedroom clean. I'll do everything else but he can do the bedroom. However I don't plan on getting married so I can have a messy bedroom all I want. Now don't condemn me for saying this but I wish it were OK to just have long term relationships instead of marriage. I hate the whole idea of marriage sometimes. I think it's because I have serious authority issues or something. I hate the thought of being accountable to some guy just because he's in love with me. I know my logic is totally screwed up but that's OK it's my logic not yours. I'm serious though I'm semi dating a guy right now and I love the fact that we can be best friends, have great conversations, and go out and have fun, but at the end of the day I don't have to plan my life around him. If our paths happen to cross and we can make time for a date great if not nobody gets upset. I don't have to tell him every time I leave the house and I don't feel bad about going to the huddle house at 3:00 AM because guess what we don't live together. We aren't super romantic and mushy we have just entered into a relationship of sorts. Yeah there are those soft sweet moments where I feel all special and stuff but it doesn't make me want to change my last name to Janisko. Sorry I know all my church friends probably think I'm horrible but I'm not. Bottom line: I don't want to get married! At least not anytime soon. Anyway I have NO idea where all that came from. I'm going to get back to the dreaded task of cleaning my room.

Nervousness Abounds

I have been working my butt off on a paper for the last 6 months or so and tomorrow I get to present my research at a conference (actually it's technically this afternoon). I am so nervous I can't sleep. Wish me luck! The paper is called, The Path to Europeanization: Opposing views of Havel and Klaus. I realize that means absolutely nothing to most of you but it is a fun topic. I wont post my abstract here which would help you to understand the paper a bit better but they are publishing these papers in a journal so I need to be careful about where I'm posting it until after publication. Anyway I'm basically comparing imposed communism to imposed democracy we'll see how it goes tomorrow. Pray for me and wish me luck!!

Yvonne

Some people anger me.

I'm highly angered as I read the news today. I see where people who are miserable insist on making everyone else's life absolute hell. We have three instances and probably more in the past few weeks where people have decided to kill themselves but decide to take a few people with them on their way. I'm not talk about suicide bombers either. They at least have false justification for their actions. Please note that I am not sympathizing with suicide bombers but they usually aren't the father of the people they decide to blow up. It's usually a random target and they feel as if they are doing Gods work. I promise you this man that all five of his kids because he was mad at his wife was not doing Gods work. Nor was he fighting for some cause that he felt was worth fighting for. This crazy insane person was so screwed up in the head and so miserable with his life that he shot his own children WHILE THEY WERE SLEEPING!!!! I get so angry when stuff like this happens. I want to question and ask why and I want to demand an answer.I realize that God isn't going to give me one and I will be totally honest there are days when I struggle with that. However in the end I always know that God is still God and he is still in control and I need to just let him do his thing because he knows exactly what is going on. He certainly didn't cause that man to shoot his children but God still knows what's going on.

OK that's my rant for the night sorry about that I'm just upset.

Randomness and DC # 3.

It's Sunday morning and we are about to leave for church (we being my family and I). After church I get to have lunch with a friend. This is the friend that I went on a date with about a week ago. I don't think I mentioned said date here but it was very fun. It's nice to date someone just to date. No love, blah blah mushy stuff. Just a guy buying a girl dinner and two people enjoying each others company.

Here's a few more DC pictures for your perusal

Adam makes me happy.

So for the first time in a few years, I decided to follow American Idol. Right now the competition is down to the top 9. Last night someone went home that I really thought didn't deserve to but hey it happens. I have already picked a winner in my brain and I'm going to be so sad if he doesn't win. My choice?











Adam Lambert. That's right gay rocker dude that wears too much eye makeup. He decided to go for a more manly look in his last performance and well he stole my heart. He has an incredible voice that can do so many things. In his last performance he sang Tracks of my Tears and it gave me chills. If he wins I can see him being as big of a winner as Carrie Underwood or Kellie Clarkson.







What do you think?

Yvonne

P.S. I'm really glad he ditched the nail polish.

Word Association?

I was browsing through facebook today looking at various friends pages and I noticed something. The majority of the freshmen college students on my friends list have something in common. They all have their political views listed as liberal. It kind of made me chuckle at first but then it kind of started to upset me.

Then I started thinking about the word liberal. What is the first thing that people think of when they hear the word liberal? Well it kind of depends on your environment so let's take it from a Christian perspective. The minute a Christian hears the word liberal they cringe (don't deny it I've seen it happen). There are very negative connotations to the word. If you're talking politics you instantly think the liberal supports abortion, gay marriage, and taking away your guns. If you're talking about churches you instantly think the pastor doesn't have any standards and anything goes. But is this an appropriate view of the word liberal? College students hear liberal and because we have placed these bad connotations on it, it appeals to them because they feel they can use their "political views" to justify their wild behavior. Again I have to ask is this appropriate?

How many of these young people know what it means to be a political liberal? How many of you that call yourselves conservatives know what it means ot be a political conservative?

Taking it agian from the Christian perspective, when a christian hears the word conservative they smile and instantly associate themselves with the conservative sect. One automatically thinks that to be a conservative means you are a pro-life, God fearing, gun toting (or at least supporting), homophobic republican.

Now I'm not saying that it's good or bad that these young people call themselves liberals. I just wish that people would become more educated before declaring a political viewpoint. I was guilty of doing the same thing. I'm a Christian so therefore I must be a conservative republican. Upon educating myself on the true meanings of these words though I have discovered that while I still support the republican party I am in fact a liberal.

Did you know that it was the conservative movement that fought against freedom of religion? The state should use religion as a method of controlling the masses. In other words the state should decide what religion you practice. It was the liberal movement that fought against religious conformity.

I'm just throwing out a random fact about the conservative movement. There are some great merits to the conservative movement but there are also some great things about the liberal movement. That's why I love the fact that we have a mixed government.

I've heard Christians make the joke that democrats can't go to heaven. I'm going to change the wording of that a little bit because I think that's a bit harsh. Do you think that in order to be a Christian you have to be a conservative? I'm interested in knowing what you think.

I realize I have rambled here but I do that often. I promise that pictures of DC are on their way!

Yvonne

DC Trip Blog #2

So I'm back from D.C. and it was so amazing. I had a blast! I didn't get to post pictures because the internet wasn't working at the hostel where I was staying. That's right I said hostel not hotel. A hostel is an interesting experience. If you've been to church camp it's a little bit like that. If you've never been to church camp then you need to stay in a hostel at least once in your life. Anyway I've got pictures coming. I'll post a couple right now but I'll do a bunch more later.

My first daytime glimpst of the capitol.

Riding the escalator into the subway. Don't be an escaleftor or you will become an escalump.

Standing in front of the eternal flame of JFK. It's raining and it still burns I love that.

DC Trip Blog #1

Ok we are at the airport. I went to Conway this morning and picked up Zack and Tiffany and we all went and ate lunch at Old Chicago. Now we are at the airport way too early but that's ok we're excited! I'll try to post pictures everyday but we'll see how that goes :)

This is Zack and TIffany. I love these people!!!!! We're just sitting in the airport at the starbucks waiting on the rest of our group to arrive.

Talk to you soon!

Yvonne

3 days to go woohoo!!

I know the countdown says to but the countdown lies and I don't know why! I told it that lying was bad but it doesn't seem to care. So anyway. 3 days to go and I'll be flying to Washington DC. I'm going to have such a great time. I'm going to do like I did last time and try to blog during the week to keep you updated on how much fun I'm having so you can be jealous . . . er I mean enjoy the trip with me. I know when I was in Scotland my "daily" blog only happened like twice but hopefully I'll be able to actually do it this time!

I was looking back on past blogs and I can't believe that I've been blogging for almost 3 years now!! I also can't believe I wrote some of that stuff! It's been a fun 3 years though I love blogging it's such an awesome way to vent.

Anyway that was totally random and has nothing to do with DC. We fly in really late on Saturday night and coming in Late on Thursday evening. It's kind of a short trip but I plan on making another trip back for a much longer period of time. There is so much to see and do and I'm not going to have a chance to do it all while I'm there.

Anyway I'm going to stop talking now because I'm not really saying anything.

Talk to you later!!

Yvonne

Only 5 more days . . . Can I take a 5 day nap?

I'm at work and I'm super bored. I'm counting and recounting the days until I go to Washington DC. I just realized that I don't have my 15 minute presentation ready that I'm suppose to give when we get there. Oops. I guess I better get started. I'm doing it on the world war II memorial and I'm rather ticked that it has to be so long. The amount of actually classwork that we have to do for this trip is way more than what we have to do in the London class. In the london class we have to write a 1-2 page paper and give a 5 minute presentation on it. I'm doing Abbey Road the famous Beatles crossing. In DC we have to prepare a 15 minute presentation on some monument or building that we will be visiting and then when we get back from DC we have to write 10 page paper on that same topic. It's not fair really. We pay the big bucks for these field studies so we don't have to work!!!!! Oh well it will still be a great trip.

Looking somewhere else when it's right in front of you.

I was sitting in my World Conflict & Terrorism class the other day and someone said something that made me have this thought. We had just convinced the professor to move our test back a couple of days so we wouldn't have to take it yesterday and so we decided to have a round table discussion on the two essay questions that were going to be on the exam.

At the beginning of each semester, we stand in really really long lines at the bookstore and we buy text books. For most of the classes they are required. Each book costs around $50 to a $100 dollars and maybe more. When I was a freshmen I rarely had to use the books so I just wouldn't buy them but now that I'm an upper level student I absolutely have to read my text books in order to make A's in my classes. What's the point of me telling you this? Well keep reading I'll get to that.

We were discussing state run terrorism vx. state sponsored terrorism and some people just weren't getting it. One student starts talking about how they were "studying" for this exam and she kept saying I was doing research online and I found this . . . or I found that. Or such and such website says this. I look over at her table and she has a book for the class but you can tell it's never been opened. By this point in a semester my books are all marked up and have a billion of those little colored tabs sticking out everywhere. So anyway I spoke up and said something to the effect of "the book sums it up like this" and after I got through speaking the student that had been looking all over the internet for the answers was like Oh that makes so much sense!

I have never understood the concept of paying that much money for a book and then not using it. It makes NO sense to me at all. It's a book that you KNOW is going to have the answers in it. Generally, unless the professor just stinks at picking books it's going to be a book that explains the concepts very well.

Yes if you're writing a 20 page paper you have to use outside resources but for an exam all of your answers are found in the text book or handouts that the professor gives you.

I think that sometimes people do this in other areas of life as well especially spiritually. We have a Bible it's Gods word. Believe me it holds all the answers! So why don't we use it??? If you are having a hard time understanding something in a text book you can always go to a professor for further explanation. If you cant understand something in the Bible talk to a pastor and ask for his understanding or better yet pray and ask God to open your understanding to his word.

The point I am trying to make is this. You have some of the best resources right in front of you as a Christian young person and if you actually make use of those you'll have no trouble passing lifes tests. You don't have to hunt for the answers they are right in front of you in your Bible (the text book) and in your spiritual leaders (kind of like the handouts we get in class).

I don't know if that makes any sense or not but read the Bible it's pretty much awesome. If you're a collge student either read the text books or stop wasting $300-$600 a semester on them!!

Yvonne

YAY!!!!!!!

So I'm the president of RHA. I love being involved on campus it's so awesome. Anyway every year RHA hosts a karaoke contest and I always participate. Well being the president this year I wasn't sure how well it would go over if I planned the contest and competed as well. So I decided I'll do all the advertising and I'll let my Vice President take care of securing all of our judges that way no one could accuse me of anything suspicious.

The contest was last night. We had an AMAZING turnout!!! we served mocktails all night long. We set up a little bar and everything and the students LOVED it!

I'm not trying to toot my own horn but the last few events I've had have had really good turnouts but yet SAB (Student Activities Board) the group that has about $40,000 per semester to spend has a hard time getting people to come to events. I figured out why. When I advertised for this karaoke contest as well as most of my other events, I flooded this campus with about 1,100 flyers. I also had about 10 e-mails sent out reminding people about it. I had a sheet sign hung (though it seems to have dissappeared along with my stakes . . . stinkin thieves). I even hosted an open mic karaoke night about 2 weeks prior to the event just so I could remind people to come out. You know what SAB does when they have an event? They send out TWO e-mails. One of them goes out about 3 or 4 days before the event and the other one goes out the day of. Now keep in mind that these e-mails are going to the student e-mail accounts. Students are suppose to check this everyday but guess what . . . THEY DONT! I would guess that a vast majority of the students don't utilize the free e-mail account they are given when they come to UAM because they already have their own personal accounts set up when they get here. So yeah that's what SAB does to advertise. It's very interesting.

Now on to the really important stuff. The contest was super long. We should have planned things just a little better as far as the rounds of competition went. It was a lot of fun though we had quite a few contestants (I think like 25). We had an audience of well over 100 students (that's a lot for this campus believe me!). It was so much fun. I worked behind the bar when I wasn't singing. The first round was a fun round that no-one got eliminated in. I got second place for the girls in that round. The way it worked was all the guys had to sing a song that was originally done by a female artist and all the girls had to sing a song that was originally done by a male artist. I sang "Hey there delilah" by the Plain White T's. It was kind of funny but hey it got me second for the round and a 10 dollar gift card.

Now in the second round I sang because of you. I ended up in third place at the end of that round. At the end of the second round the top 8 got to advance to the final round. The points errased for each of the 8 contestants. I was the third person to sing and I sang a song called "Right to be Wrong" by Joss Stone. I got a total of 80 points for the round and I was pushed into first place. I was nervous at that point because I really really wanted to win. I've been trying for first place for 3 years now. Anyway I kept having friends go look at the scoreboard because I was too chicken. It was down to the last two singers. Tiffany a friend of mine who won first last year and a guy who's name I can't really remember. When Tiffany got through singing Errin comes up to me and says "how much do you love Tiffany." I was like aww did she beat me again? She hadn't. We were tied for first place!!!! Now when we planned the rules for the contest no-one thought about a tie breaker so Tif and I didn't know what the judges were going to do in order to determine a winner. We were standing there doing the whole Miss America Pagent thing and hugging each other when they were announcing the winners lol. Well anyway they went all the way back to the first round and added up the points from the judges in that round to see who the winner was. I was ahead by about 11 points and so . . . . I WON!!!!! I'm so stinkin happy!!!!! I FINALLY won a karaoke contest. I place in the top 3 every year but I wanted to be number one!! The prize? A $200 wal-mart gift card. YAY!!!!!!

Life is good

I'm sitting in the office and I'm eating a delicious toasted roast beef sandwhich from Brunos and I'm drinking a Dr. Pepper. It's nothing major but it makes me happy just the same. My life is really good you know that? I am getting a great education with the opportunity for an even better one when I graduate next year. I have an awesome friend in God (he is my everything). I have a great group of friends that I hang out with all the time. My family is pretty stinkin awesome too!

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!

I'm super duper excited because we leave for Washington DC in 2 weeks and 2 days!!!! I can't wait!!!!!

It's going to be so much fun.

Again I must say

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!

No matter what they take from me . . .

THEY CAN'T TAKE AWAY MY DIGNITY (in my best Whitney impression)


So I walked into the middle of a speech at an alumni dinner last night. I walked in at the right time because Reverend Shay Gillespie was passionately quoting the words to a Whitney Houston song. I felt the urge to bust out in song but I refrained.

I've always liked the Greatest Love of All but it now has a comical aspect to it because just a few days ago I hosted an open mic karaoke night and someone (a male) got up and sang that song and well it was hilarious.

So imagine with me walking in the the university center and hearing someone shout at the top of their lungs the following words.

I decided long ago,
never to walk in any ones shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They cant take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

It was suppose to be an alumni dinner for Black History month but I think he ended up preaching a sermon. And apparently quoting Whitney Houston was the best way to end it.

I just wish I could have heard the rest of his speech.

Anyway there is as usual absolutely NO point to this blog other than to say for some odd reason I have Whitney songs stuck in my head today!

I just want you to know . . .

That having the flu sucks dirt worse than a broken hoover. I started feeling sick last night during church and now I have the full blown flu. I was hoping it was just a cold until I started running a fever

I went to one class this morning and I've been sleeping all day long.
I have a paper on George Mason due tomorrow and I haven't finished it. I guess I'll get to work on it. At least it's not due until 4:30.

Pray for me please!
(and to whoever the idiot was that left a comment on my blog last time I asked for prayer if you've ever read the Bible and if you believed the Bible you would know prayer works.)

I probably shouldn't have called that person an idiot but I'm sick so don't pay any attention to me.

Free Bread and a Barnyard (the story of capitalism with a democratic twist)

I snagged this from a friends facebook page. I'm posting it because it's pretty funny and perhaps it will make you see that while I may say that I come from the liberalism tradition I haven't gone and joined the Democratic party. I will continue to bake my own bread and not share it, Thank You very much. HA


You've heard this story before, now read the rest of the story.If this doesn't make you at least smile you're probably not awake yet. Like it or not there are a few more critters mucking in the barnyard.

The Little Red Hen, she called all of her neighbors together and said, '
If we plant this wheat, we shall have bread to eat. Who will help me plant it?''

Not I,' said the cow.
'Not I,' said the duck.
'Not I,' said the pig.
'Not I,' said the goose.

'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen, and so she did.
The wheat grew very tall and ripened into golden grain.
'Who will help me reap my wheat?' asked the little red hen.

'Not I,' said the duck..
'Out of my classification,' said the pig.
'I'd lose my seniority,' said the cow.
'I'd lose my unemployment compensation,' said the goose.

'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen, and so she did.
At last it came time to bake the bread.'Who will help me bake the bread?' asked the little red hen.

'That would be overtime for me,' said the cow.
'I'd lose my welfare benefits,' said the duck.
'I'm a dropout and never learned how,' said the pig.
'If I'm to be the only helper, that's discrimination,' said the goose.

'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen.
She baked five loaves and held them up for all of her neighbors to see.
They wanted some and, in fact, demanded a share. But the little red hen said, 'No, I shall eat all five loaves.

''Excess profits!' cried the cow. (Nancy Pelosi)
'Capitalist leech!' screamed the duck. (Barbara Boxer)
'I demand equal rights!' yelled the goose. (Jesse Jackson)
The pig just grunted in disdain. (Ted Kennedy)

And they all painted 'Unfair!' picket signs and marched around and around the little red hen, shouting obscenities.

Then the farmer (Obama) came. He said to the little red hen, 'You must not be so greedy.''
But I earned the bread,' said the little red hen.

'Exactly,' said Barack the farmer. 'That is what makes our free enterprise system so wonderful. Anyone in the barnyard can earn as much as he wants. But under our modern government regulations, the productive workers must divide the fruits of their labor with those who are lazy and idle.

'And they all lived happily ever after, including the little red hen, who smiled and clucked,
'I am grateful, for now I truly understand.
'But her neighbors became quite disappointed in her. She never again baked bread because she joined the 'party' and got her bread free. And all the Democrats smiled. 'Fairness' had been established. Individual initiative had died, but nobody noticed; perhaps no one cared...so long as there was free bread that 'the rich' were paying for.

EPILOGUE
Bill Clinton is getting $12 million for his memoirs.
Hillary got $8 million for hers.
That's $20 million for the memories from two people, who for eight years,repeatedly testified, under oath, that they couldn't remember anything.

IS THIS A GREAT BARNYARD OR WHAT?

It's a bad word . . .

Ok so I realize that my last blog made absolutely NO sense but that's ok because my name is Yvonne and I'm random like that.

My next bit of randomness:

I have a new goal. Last semester I had a friend that decided she wanted to quit cussing. Don't worry I haven't gone and picked up the habit of cussing people out or anything. However it was really funny to watch or listen as she tried to come up with new ways to express her anger instead of cussing.

What does that have to do with my new goal? Well nothing really except that I also want to stop saying a certain word. I myself consider it a bad word. What is that word you ask? Well I'll tell you: It's "fixing" as in, I'm fixing to go to the store, or I'm fixing to slap you.

It makes NO sense AT ALL! However I find myself saying it allllll the time. So my goal is to stop saying that dreadful word. It would be much better to say I'm about to go shopping or I'm about to dropkick you in the face don't you think? Or just even I'm going to do my homework now (that's just an example you don't really think I'm going to do homeowork do you?).

So anyway if you have any ideas on how I can stop saying "fixing" then I would love to hear them.

Yvonne

Hello again my blogging friends!

I haven't been blogging regularly. That's bad! I like to blog I just don't have as much time as I use to :(



I had a birthday yesterday! I'm 23 years old now. I'm glad that I'm still young enough to be excited about birthdays.



I've had several things that I've wanted to blog about but I haven't taken the time to do it. Sadly I don't write these thigns down so I can't actually remember what they were!!



Did I tell you that I went to Denton TX to look at the UNT campus? Well I did! My sister and I went up there a couple of weekends ago. I LOVED it!!!!! I think that may be where I want to go for grad school.

I was suppose to take the GRE next weekend but I'm not going to be able to. I'll have to take it in a couple of weeks.

I'm currently working with our schools student government to re-write our constitution. It's been a lot of fun but it's also been some hard work. It takes a lot of work to reform government at a student level. I feel sorry for our national leaders! I've discovered something about myself that will shock the pants off of most of you. I'm taking a class called contemporary political ideologies (it's very interesting so stop rolling your eyes) and guess what. . . . I'm . . . . a LIBERAL *gasp* No it can't be so! Me the hardcore republican that thought liberal was a bad word am classifying myself as a liberal.

And guess what . . . most of you republicans out there are liberals too and I think that's fuuuunnnny!!!

Liberal doesn't mean we like killing babies and taking guns away. It doesn't mean that we want to take the rich peoples money away from them and give it to the poor people.

Let me ask you this: how many of you agree with the famous line "all men are created equal" or that we have certain unalienable rights and that among this are "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness"

I thought you all would agree! Guess what . . . those come from a liberal!

Wow I have no idea why I'm blogging about this.

Liberals fought against two things when the ideology of liberalism first came about.

First of all they were fighting against religious conformity
Second they were fighting against something called ascribed status.

Religious conformity is exactly what you think it is . . . the state forcing people to adhere to a specific religion.

Ascribed status is basically the theory that whatever you're born into is the status you must remain for your whole life. There is no room for improvement or betterment. All men are not created equal under the theory of ascribed status.

Liberalsim means I want individual freedom as long as my freedom doesn't infringe upon your freedom. Guess what (I keep saying that) I can be a republican and still be a liberal at the same time. I think that is so awesome!

Now if you don't like calling me a liberal I guess you could call me an individualist conservative like Reagan or Margaret Thatcher and I'm totally cool with that because I like both of those people.

Now I have absolutely no idea why I wrote this except for the fact that I take great pleasure in shocking my family. (as if they actually read my blog)

I must reassure them though that I am still loyal to the republican party (sorry grandma) lol.

Yeah you guys can just ignore this rather odd little blog. I think it comes from not getting enough sleep or something. What do you think?