Today Yvonne is Sad :(

Pretty lame sad face I know.

I'm so sad today! Tonight will be my last opportunity to sing with the choir before I have to fly back to Arkansas. I love singing in the choir. There is such a great spirit there, such an awesome amount of positive energy that always puts a smile on my face. I'm so thankful that I get to sing when I come home during the summers. Thanks for that Bro. and Sis. Frost I love you guys bunches!

Don't get me wrong I'm kind of ready to get back to Monticello and the excitment of RA training and classes but I wish I could pack the choir up and take them with me so I could continue to sing with them!

So tonight will be a bittersweet service for me and I hope the choir just gets in there and has church!

Until next time

Yvonne

The musings of an insomniac. . .God's an insomniac too!

It's about 1:00 am (PST) and I am wide awake as usual! These past few weeks sleep seems to elude me until around 4 or 5 in the morning. The result is a lot of time to think about things! This my friends could be very dangerous! I stay up at night plotting ways to sabotage the Obama campaign and help McCain sail to victory. *Laughs Evilly*
I also think about my life and my dreams and my walk with God. I have found that God is the biggest insomniac of all! He NEVER sleeps!!! That thought came to me tonight in between browsing you tube videos and my favorite blogs! It's nice to know that I don't have to talk to God between the hours of 8am and 4pm EST and even if someone else is talking to him I can call him up just to chat. I know I ask God for a lot of things but I think my favorite conversations with him have been those in which I just want to "say hi" or let him know I'm thinking about him. I think God really likes that sort of thing. Sometimes I think God must feel like our parents sometimes feel. We only call when we need something. (Sorry mom!) I must need things a lot because I call her all the time!!! But seriously I enjoy my little chats with God. Sometimes they are very short just a little hey God I just wanted to say I love you! Or maybe a quick Thank You Lord for your blessings today. Sometimes I don't have talks with God nearly enough and I neglect our special time together. I get so caught up in life that I forget to take that time. The nice thing is God forgives that as long as I ask him to! Sometimes especially at night when I can't sleep I'll sit on my bed and I'll just talk out loud. Some would think I am talking to myself but I know God is listening and even more importantly he actually cares about the things I have to say! It's amazing I can sit back and just say "you know I'm not sure what to do right now I'm at this crossroads in my life and I have so many decisions to make I could really use some guidance here. What's your advice Jesus should I try to finish school in a year or should I hang out at UAM a little longer to prevent some stress." I've never had a voice speak to me and give me the direct answer but the answer always comes. I'm still waiting on that particular answer but I can feel it coming and I have a feeling that in a future chat between two insomniacs God will reveal the next step that I need to take. He's pretty awesome that way he may wait until "the last minute" to light the path and he may only light one step at a time but as long as I follow his flashlight I know I'll get where I'm going! Please don't look down on me for calling God an "insomniac" it is certainly not meant as a derogatory term. Some people view God as their Father or their lover or their very best friend. I consider God my fellow insomniac who stays up with me on the nights that I can't sleep and comforts me when fear grips my heart because I can't figure out which way to go. Sometimes I imagine him sitting on the bed with me at night or next to me in the chair on the computer just enjoying the evening. Insomnia can be a problem but hey the next time you find yourself wide awake at 1 AM just remember, God's an insomniac too!

Thanks for listening to these musings from an insomniac!

Yvonne

P.S. Sorry Mom I know you're hoping to get me up at a decent hour but sleep is again eluding me. I love you!

Lord Prepare Me!

Last night I had the opportunity for the second time in the past week to really witness to someone. She was a young woman who at one time had the Holy Ghost but has now fallen away from God. I was told that I was the answer to her prayers. Really she was the answer to mine. I've been praying that God would allow me to run into people that I can truly be a light to. I want to be the witness that he has called me to be. I was talking to my mom about this on the phone and I was telling her about the different opportunities that I have had to share God with different ones. She told me that she felt like God was just preparing me for the work that he has for me to do. Well all I have to say is this. . ."Lord Prepare Me!" I want to be all that you want me to be.

I just felt like sharing with you all what God is doing in my life. He has been so good to me lately and I cannot thank Him enough. Each day I find another small way that he has blessed me. Sometimes it's just a reminder of his grace and how it saved me. Sometimes it's a little note from that special someone he has put in my life. Sometimes it's when he wraps me up in his presence when I'm in prayer and I can just feel his love and mercy all over me.

I hope that you all are having blessed day in the Lord. Continue to keep me in your prayers as I follow the path that God has set for me.

Yvonne